rolling along

after a month and a half of anxiety, my life suddenly seems to be rolling along. nothing major has changed-- not on the outside, anyway-- but i am feeling okay with where i'm at. i am in debt, but i am beginning to accept that there are many people in more debt than me, and i am approaching my finances in the way that i am approaching my diet (diet as in general eating habits, not as in random starvation, just to clarify). as i grow up, i continue to learn what works and what doesn't, and, believe it or not, i think have been moving in a generally upward and healthy direction, although there are certainly setbacks. when i buy into the panic quick-fix trap, it all goes down the toilet (not literally, don't worry) . . . or, for whatever bizarre reason, i head in the complete opposite of my intended direction. so, with job, life, health, and money, i'm trying to 'let it be,' as paul says, while at the same time being mindful of the direction i wish to be going.

and artsmonkey, you were right: exercise is a wonderful antidote to moodiness-- thank-you for the important reminder.

you know what else is wonderful? a single red rose in a blue vase, on a clean desk, in a cozy room. i may just have to replace this one myself, when it finally gives in to droop.